March 13, 2011

Biker Shorts & Renewal

A few weeks ago I announced that I now can be seen from time to time sporting biker shorts with nothing over them. There were skeptics--this should settle it.

I hope this weekend has been great for all my friends out in bloggyland. It has been pretty good for me, despite a sick kiddo and lack of sleep. Somehow she got her days and nights flip-flopped and I have had her in my bed  along with the Fresh Beat Band in my head for the past two nights.

One good thing did come out of her illness and it happened yesterday. I had to take her to the doctor. I have gone into great detail on the blog about my struggles with depression and anxiety which stem from a fear of being sick, my kids being sick, visiting doctors, etc. Because of my anxiety, taking kids to the doctor is not something I have done very much of, especially alone. Usually my husband or a grandparent will do this. I know, great mother, huh?

But yesterday my husband was on shift and the baby girl needed to go to the doctor. So I said a prayer, asked the grandparents to keep the son and we headed out. Alone. To the doctor. I was praying and I was calm. We got to the doctor, got the diagnosis, got the prescription, threw up our first dose of prescription, and then headed home. We then proceeded to do a breathing treatment, fighting against the strength of what would surely rival any WWF wrestler. We then stayed up most of the night coughing, gagging, up-chucking and, as I mentioned, watching Fresh Beat Band. I was able to stay relatively calm through all of this. Not once did I cry. Not once did I lose it (except when I yelled at the chicken nuggets that got thrown-up). I didn't even slip into emotional eating!

I hadn't thought much about it but today I was having lunch and talking with with my mom when she brought to my attention that I wouldn't have been able to do all that a year ago. Mainly taking the kid to the doctor solo, but the rest of the night would have been tough also. She is SO right!  I would have tried to get my husband to meet me or take off work or I would have asked my mom to go with me or even take her alone. I would have been eating all night long since I was up with the Kiki, Marina, Twist, Shout and Glory. But I didn't.

The reason I was able to do that yesterday is the same reason I am losing weight and keeping it off for the first time in my life. It's the same reason I hold my head up higher. It's the reason I do anything that I didn't used to be able to do. It doesn't have anything to do with food. It has everything to do with my mind.

Romans 12:1-2
Therefore, I urge you, brothers and sisters, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God—this is your true and proper worship. 2 Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.

Re-new (v.) regenerate, reestablish on a new, usually improved, basis or make new or like new; reincarnate, cause to appear in a new form, to make new again; to restore to freshness, perfection, or vigor; to give new life to; to rejuvenate; to reestablish; to recreate; to rebuild; Specifically, to substitute for (an old obligation or right) a new one of the same nature; to continue in force; to make again

Ephesians 4:22-24
You were taught, with regard to your former way of life, to put off your old self, which is being corrupted by its deceitful desires; to be made new in the attitude of your minds; and to put on the new self, created to be like God in true righteousness and holiness.

Colossians 3: 7-10
You used to walk in these ways, in the life you once lived.  But now you must also rid yourselves of all such things as these: anger, rage, malice, slander, and filthy language from your lips.  Do not lie to each other, since you have taken off your old self with its practices  and have put on the new self, which is being renewed in knowledge in the image of its Creator.

(Mind --> Renewed) = (Me --> Transformed)



Amy said...

Oh Keelie!! I can SOOOO relate to this. Nothing makes me go bizerk like a sick kid of mine. I think I ate 20 whoppers and all the junk that comes with those one year when my baby girl was ill. I was a MESS. My hope is that God is growing me to a point where I too, can handle those scary, exhausting moments in life with grace. Working on renewing this mind o' mine :)

Pretty Pauline said...

Love it, love it, LOVE IT! We have the upchucks, too, along with many sleepless nights for Mama. It usually takes time to go through all of us! But I have been so blessed not to get it myself, as well as have the energy to get it all done while caring for the rest of the fam. PTL!

Karla said...

change and growth are a good thing

kelly said...

Fantastic post!!!

Adrienne said...

Awesome progress on everything. I hope your baby girl gets better soon!

Kelly @ Dare to be Domestic said...

Good for you!!! It's amazing the transformation people make going through weight loss not just physically but emotionally and mentally. I have anxiety in a lot of strange situations, I try to get over it but sometimes something as simple as asking a waiter/waitress for something gets me nervous and I beg my boyfriend to do it for me. I'm trying each day to get over these little hurdles. I think when you realize how strong you are physically it helps you realize you can apply that same strength to the rest of your life.

Keep up the great work Keelie. You've always been an amazing and beautiful woman. Now you're showing the world what we all knew inside and out! ox

Dana said...

WTG! Sorry your little one was sick, it's going around everywhere. Good for you in climbing over that hurdle! Umm, you are WAY braver than me to wear the bike shorts AND post a pic. I bow down!!!!

Can do mom said...

Isn't it exciting to see growth and change not just in the outward appearances but in other (just as important, perhaps more?) parts of your life? I'm so excited for the life changes you're making. You go, mom!

I'm hoping your little girl is on the mend and that you're both getting the rest you need.

Mama Bear June said...

We can do all things through Christ who strengthens us! It makes all the difference in the world when you can lean on the Everlasting Arms, doesn't it? Great job!

Kate said...

I had a similar moment last weekend. Something I never thought I'd be able to handle. And voila. It was not easy, but I had what it took to make it through. God is always faithful when we seek him.