A few weeks ago I announced that I now can be seen from time to time sporting biker shorts with nothing over them. There were skeptics--this should settle it.
I hope this weekend has been great for all my friends out in bloggyland. It has been pretty good for me, despite a sick kiddo and lack of sleep. Somehow she got her days and nights flip-flopped and I have had her in my bed along with the Fresh Beat Band in my head for the past two nights.
One good thing did come out of her illness and it happened yesterday. I had to take her to the doctor. I have gone into great detail on the blog about my struggles with depression and anxiety which stem from a fear of being sick, my kids being sick, visiting doctors, etc. Because of my anxiety, taking kids to the doctor is not something I have done very much of, especially alone. Usually my husband or a grandparent will do this. I know, great mother, huh?
But yesterday my husband was on shift and the baby girl needed to go to the doctor. So I said a prayer, asked the grandparents to keep the son and we headed out. Alone. To the doctor. I was praying and I was calm. We got to the doctor, got the diagnosis, got the prescription, threw up our first dose of prescription, and then headed home. We then proceeded to do a breathing treatment, fighting against the strength of what would surely rival any WWF wrestler. We then stayed up most of the night coughing, gagging, up-chucking and, as I mentioned, watching Fresh Beat Band. I was able to stay relatively calm through all of this. Not once did I cry. Not once did I lose it (except when I yelled at the chicken nuggets that got thrown-up). I didn't even slip into emotional eating!
I hadn't thought much about it but today I was having lunch and talking with with my mom when she brought to my attention that I wouldn't have been able to do all that a year ago. Mainly taking the kid to the doctor solo, but the rest of the night would have been tough also. She is SO right! I would have tried to get my husband to meet me or take off work or I would have asked my mom to go with me or even take her alone. I would have been eating all night long since I was up with the Kiki, Marina, Twist, Shout and Glory. But I didn't.
The reason I was able to do that yesterday is the same reason I am losing weight and keeping it off for the first time in my life. It's the same reason I hold my head up higher. It's the reason I do anything that I didn't used to be able to do. It doesn't have anything to do with food. It has everything to do with my mind.
Therefore, I urge you, brothers and sisters, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God—this is your true and proper worship. 2 Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.
Re-new (v.) regenerate, reestablish on a new, usually improved, basis or make new or like new; reincarnate, cause to appear in a new form, to make new again; to restore to freshness, perfection, or vigor; to give new life to; to rejuvenate; to reestablish; to recreate; to rebuild; Specifically, to substitute for (an old obligation or right) a new one of the same nature; to continue in force; to make again
Ephesians 4:22-24 You were taught, with regard to your former way of life, to put off your old self, which is being corrupted by its deceitful desires; to be made new in the attitude of your minds; and to put on the new self, created to be like God in true righteousness and holiness.
Colossians 3: 7-10 You used to walk in these ways, in the life you once lived. But now you must also rid yourselves of all such things as these: anger, rage, malice, slander, and filthy language from your lips. Do not lie to each other, since you have taken off your old self with its practices and have put on the new self, which is being renewed in knowledge in the image of its Creator.
Hi, I'm Keelie. A compulsive analyzer, controller, puter-offer & over-eater...saved by the grace of God to love Him and love people. I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body I live by faith in the Son of God who loves me and gave himself for me. (Galatians 2:20)