January 3, 2014

Walk On

My life has changed drastically in the past 4 years. 

Physically I lost (forever gone) 30 lbs. I have been, though not currently, in the best shape of my life, completing multiple 5Ks as well as a Half Marathon. I am no longer one to sit and rarely watch TV anymore. I have learned more about nutrition than I even thought possible and continue to learn more. I now know what being healthy "feels" like and crave that feeling when I'm not.

Mentally I learned that I can do hard things, as well as things that aren't fun to me just because sometimes those things need to be done. Sometimes they have to be done. I learned that many deep-seeded lies have directed my thinking for years and by replacing those lies with the truth of God's Word I think about all things in a different way today.

Emotionally I have learned that relationships with other people aren't optional and they are really hard but thats ok. Relationship is something God created to conform me to His Son. Love others. Not "easy others" or "likeable others" or "stable others" or "drama-free others." Just love others. I am able to love for no other reason than the glorious fact God loves me.  Difficult, unlikeable, unstable, drama-filled me. Yes, I learned those things about myself, too. I know that I need to be loved and to accept love when it's given, however it's given, even if its not the way I imagined it should be.

And finally the spiritual aspect of my journey. This whole real fat deal has been completely spiritual. I had no idea what I started when I posted this silly picture in January of 2009:

I just felt "something "(it was the Holy Spirit of Christ) compelling me to be brutally honest. Honest about my thoughts, my feelings, and yes, even my weight. God's Word assured me that it would be okay to be REAL because He loved the real me. And others need to know he loves the real them. 

It seems now that He carried me that year. Completely--I don't remember being discouraged or wanting to quit or even thinking that what I was doing to improve  my health was difficult. Then satan busted in with lies. New lies that I hadn't heard before and had trouble discerning. Was I being too rigid? Was I trying too hard to be obedient? Was I being silly putting all of this out there for the world to see? I began to lose heart.

I took a step back for a couple of years. During that time I have learned lots but the most important is this: No matter what, I have got to walk on. When doubt haunts me, when human voices taunt me, I can't be shaken! I can't retreat or pout or give up. I must Keep Calm and Walk On.

So here we are in 2014. Let's walk, people!

{Oh yes, Proverbs 3 is my "scripture of 2014." Gonna memorize that baby, hopefully with the fam.}


A Better Tina said...

This is beautiful.

Anonymous said...

And the blog title totally speaks for itself. I love your blog. I've been sharing it with friends on FB. I hope some will read and be encouraged.

It is a up and down battle. I had some great weight loss victory this year losing 30 pounds since really committing to it in July! When I had found your blog about 4 yrs ago I was just getting my feet wet in the weight loss thing. After having 8 kids I had to do something. Up and down I went. Trying sometimes and failing much. Fast forward to today.....feeling great...Lost 30 pounds, am jogging about 3.5 miles 5x a week. It's hard work but I have to tell myself that nothing is "law". I don't have to do the jogs or even eating right. If I want to "overeat", I'm aloud to. Believe it or not....This type of thinking has helped me lose those 30 lbs. And like you said....keep calm and walk on!!

Chris @joyfulmother.blogspot.com
(I haven't blogged in a long while but that's where you might remember me from (wink) ) You can find me on FB I'm following your Real Fat page.

Jack Sh*t, Gettin Fit said...

Just keep putting one foot in front of the other (don't try putting one foot in front of the same foot; IT JUST WON'T WORK!)

Bonnie said...

You go, Keelie! Keep Calm and Walk On!

Kristen said...

So excited to see you blogging again. You have been like a friend to me even though I don't know you - reading your posts made me feel like I had found someone who understood me and knew what I was going through.
You inspired me when you used to blog and I am so thrilled to have you pop back up in my blog reader!
So excited to see where 2014 takes you :)

Adrienne said...

You can do it! You're right!! Satan lies to us and I struggle with all this too. I'm walking w ya lady.