Thanksgiving Successes

Just so you know I wasn't a complete turkey during the Thanksgiving holiday, I thought I'd share some of what was great about it...

We spent the weekend before Thanksgiving on a Navajo reservation in New Mexico. Our church has a special friendship with a Navajo church on the reservation there. Several trips are made throughout the year to visit with our Navajo friends and serve with them in various ways. On this trip we delivered fire wood to families in the surrounding areas and served Thanksgiving lunch after the service on Sunday.

Pine Hill Baptist Church

3 days in with no shower. Not a problem for me, really.

The trip was a blast and such a blessing! When we got back I decided to do a home project. I have been wanting to paint the front of my kitchen cabinets with chalkboard paint for a while now. I ran across an almost full can of paint, had a little time and decided to go for it.

A little tape (thank you Norma), a few squirts of paint and wha-la!

Before I began to focus on my weight loss and "lifestyle change" (Can't believe I actually use that term in a serious manner now!) I did a LOT of home projects. It is something that I love to do but I think I began to throw myself into projects so that I wouldn't have to deal with how miserable I had become. I have had to focus so hard the past year on my health in order to be successful that I haven't done much "crafting" around the house at all. It was nice to do something like this just because and I love how my cabinets turned out!!!

Thanksgiving Day was a full day spent with family! I enjoyed getting ready and not having to worry about being uncomfortable in my clothes. I was able to focus on more important things...

My target dress...I wore a blue jean jacket with it most of the day.

Me and my main squeeze ♥ Yes, he's a HOTTIE.

I enjoyed taking pictures with my family rather than dodging the camera. That was a holiday first!

We had super exciting Saturday after Thanksgiving. My dad is a high school football coach and his team is in the playoffs. They pulled out an underdog win and are now only two games away from the Texas state championship game! I have been watching my dad coach football since before I can remember and nothing would make me happier than for him to be able to claim a state championship!We'll see. Still a few wins to go...

Mom and Dad after the big win. Go Tigers!

We finished up the week at our family cabin. Lots of chaos (with 5 kiddos under the age of 5, 4 of them boys) but lots of good memories made. It was the perfect end to the Thanksgiving holiday.

Kiddos working on ornaments for the cabin tree

Even though I did not stick to my plan 100% as I mentioned yesterday, I realize that I have made huge strides in the way that I approach the holidays. Anxiety was at bay for the most part and food was not the focus. It felt good.

And finally a random picture:

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! My son found this in my car floorboard today. It is my ID badge from when I was a teacher a couple of years ago. This just scared me at first. And then it made my day.

Progress Report

Thanksgiving: B+

I did pretty good on Thursday. I drank a lot of coffee in the morning. I drank an equal amount of water before the big meal. I chewed gum as I prepared food and waited to eat. I ate turkey and a small spoonful of 3 different casseroles plus gravy. It was just enough. I was not stuffed. I did not have dessert. We then moved on to a second meal. As I was loading my food up for this meal I had a bite of a chocolate brownie. I had another large coffee but did not eat anything at the meal. I was not hungry and decided that I had enough calories for the day with the meal I ate at noon. I went to bed feeling great. I give myself a "B" for not exercising, and only eating one meal.

Weekend at Cabin: D-

I have had much worse experiences with staying on track at the cabin in the past, but I am very disappointed with how I did at this point in the game. I continued to not exercise all weekend, which at the time seems like I am doing something nice for myself, but in reality I feel SO much better when I exercise. I don't know when this is really going to SINK IN. I pretty much ate whatever I wanted in moderation. WHAT!? My plan is not to eat whatever I want in moderation through the holidays. It is to stick relentlessly to my FP4H eating plan. My plan is to do my plan. I did not do my plan at the cabin. I kind-of tried and that is the only reason I am not giving myself an F.

Regrouping...

All is not lost. I now know that I can successfully make it through a major holiday with two family meals and not go overboard. I know that I need to work on a couple of things:

1. Exercising EVERYDAY. I have to do this everyday. I will tweet and facebook it when I do. I just figured out how to link my facebook and twitter accounts so please follow along on either.

2. Using my tracker. I have not used my tracker in two weeks. The scale is showing it.

So far I am not really where I wanted to be, but I still have confidence that I can reach my goal by New Year's. I am not glad that I haven't exercised and I do not feel good about the way I've been eating so I will think about that when I need to make a decision to do the "next right thing." Pressing on...

Real Thankful

I am so thankful for the past year. It has been full of ups and downs, accomplishments and humbling moments. What I have learned and how I have changed...I will never fully understand how it all happened.

As I sat in a doctor's office last December, having an anxiety attack and believing that I was dying, I remember thinking I need to give thanks right now. I didn't understand why I was compelled to give thanks and to tell the truth I'm not so sure I was 100% sincere in my thanks-giving, but I did try to.

The Bible says to give thanks IN all circumstances, not FOR all circumstances.

1 Thessalonians 5:18
Give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.

It was out of a lot of pain and darkness that restoration and healing came in my life. I didn't even know it, but THAT is what I was giving thanks for nearly a year ago. I can't explain why bad things happen to good people and I won't try to figure God out, but through it all I've learned this: I can trust my Savior. He is faithful and for that I am really, really thankful.

Hebrews 10:23
Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for he who promised is faithful.

Starving Self

Day 4: On the road...no make-up...no shower

Last night I returned home from a trip to New Mexico. It was a unique trip because we left on Friday, arrived at destination on Saturday, and returned home on Sunday and Monday. Without going into the details of the trip, the purpose was to serve others.

I thought it was so fitting that as I was stressing last week about what I would eat on this trip and how I would "make it" that I got this comment on one of my posts:

When I stop thinking about me, me, me and start thinking about the person who is still suffering and what I can do to assist them on their journey, I am doing God's will. And well? That keeps it all in perspective.

This is a perfect example of why your comments of encouragement mean so much to me! God used that little bit of wisdom to help me throughout my whole trip. Every time my thoughts wandered to food I remembered Kate's comment. Thanks, friend.

The anecdote for overeating or an obsession with food (both extreme forms of selfishness) is to think of someone else. There is always someone struggling more than me. There is always someone hungrier than me. There is always someone giving up WAY more than me.

There are so many people in need. They may be in need of food...money...a friend? The needs are many, but the servants are few. Why is that? God always has our best interests in mind as he guides us and commands us. When He tells us to love others as we love ourselves, I think He knows just how much we will be blessed--always more than the ones we are trying to "help" and always beyond our expectations.

In the spirit of the season, I want to encourage all of us to seek out ways to serve, love and focus on others. This may in the form of volunteering, forgiving, accepting or it may simply be taking enough time away from basting the turkey (or counting your points) to focus on your loved ones who are living, breathing reasons to forget self. "Self" is what got us all into the hefty shape we are in. Most times it takes starving self to feed a soul...I know my self could stand to starve for a while.

Romans 12:9-13 NIV
Love must be sincere. Hate what is evil; cling to what is good. Be devoted to one another in love. Honor one another above yourselves. Never be lacking in zeal, but keep your spiritual fervor, serving the Lord. 12 Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer. Share with the Lord’s people who are in need. Practice hospitality.

Romans 12:9-10 The Message
Love from the center of who you are; don't fake it. Run for dear life from evil; hold on for dear life to good. Be good friends who love deeply; practice playing second fiddle. Don't burn out; keep yourselves fueled and aflame. Be alert servants of the Master, cheerfully expectant. Don't quit in hard times; pray all the harder. Help needy Christians; be inventive in hospitality.

Have a blessed Thanksgiving!

Much love,

Tomorrow is Another Day

Tomorrow I'll think of some way...after all, tomorrow is another day. -Scarlett O'Hara

In all of my planning and preparation for the season that is upon us, I would be remiss if I did not give adequate consideration to the underdog. This is the seemingly non-threatening element that could easily be my downfall. I can make up strategies to get through a meal or party...and I can come up with cute little acronyms and checklists for special events. But if I don't keep my "tomorrows" in check, I will surely fail.

The "tomorrows" are the days after and before and in between the big events. While the special occasions will be many, the tomorrows will be more and they are HARD too, as I was reminded today. Cravings. Fatigue. Just the normal stuff--but it really got to me. I spent all day battling the chips in the pantry and the rear that wanted to be on the couch. As the day went on and I didn't exactly make the best decisions, it hit me just how much I will need to focus on the day-to-day throughout the holidays.

I will need to make double sure that I am tracking everything I eat, every day. I will need to make triple sure I have a well stocked pantry and fridge at all times. I will most certainly need to make sure I keep me head buried in the best book I ever read for helping me to persevere and succeed. You guessed it--The Holy Bible. This is a plan I know like the back of my hand. I've been doing it for nearly a year! Just gotta keep it up.

I was thinking today about how long I've been at this and even after all this time, the fact that I still have days like today baffles me. It was a BAD day. I can't even remember all the different foods I ate to be able to make a list here. I feel yucky physically, mentally and emotionally right now. I started my day only having a problem in one of those areas--emotionally. Dealing with my emotions in an improper and ineffective way--with mindless eating--only led to more difficulties. Duh! I knew that would happen, but I was on cruise control for binge eating. :(

The good news? As Scarlett so optimistically put it...

Tomorrow is another day! The Lord's mercy is new for us every morning. If I had to pinpoint the one thing that I personally have done differently this time, than all the other times before, it's that I have really learned how to accept the new mercy in the morning. I still need just as much mercy as I ever have. But I have learned, through faith, how to let that mercy pick me up and carry me on along. That's the only way to "not stop" and to "not stop" is the only way to get there.

Lamentations 3:22-24
Because of the LORD’s great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. I say to myself, "The Lord is my portion, therefor I will wait for him."

He has been SO faithful to me. Everything I don't deserve, he has lavished upon me in His unmatched grace. As my buddy posted earlier today, "Why me? Why did you bestow Grace upon me? Well...who am I to argue with the one true God? To God be the Glory! It's for you too-ya know!"

Love it.

This is a pic from another day...

Meet My Plan, Sara

This is the #2 part of the All In Holiday Challenge--The Plan. I'm calling my plan SARA.

Strategies
Assessment
Rewards
Accountability

What? So I like acronyms...

Strategies

• Specific plan for each event. Blog about each specific event before it happens. Events include but are not limited to: Mission Trip, Thanksgivings A and B, Holiday Cabin Getaway #1, anniversary overnight shopping trip, Cookie Baking Party, family Girl's Christmas Party, Christmas Eves A and B, Christmas Day, Holiday Cabin Getaway #2, and New Year's Eve. I have learned that anything that throws off my "routine" is going to make things hard on me...and it seems that my routine is about to be a non-routine for the next 6 weeks. By having a plan of attack for each out of the ordinary event/meal I am hoping to stop the madness before it ever happens. I want to treat each event as an individual.
• Pre-Event routine: Eat an apple, drink at least one bottle of water, get gloss on and gum in.
• Exercise before the event. Exercise EVERY DAY.
• Carry my verses from previous Bible studies and a small list of motivations for sticking to my goals at all times. In moments of weakness, slip into bathroom and re-focus using said tools.
• I'm sure I will think of more...

Assessment
I plan to journal or blog about each event after it occurs. This will help make sure I am staying on track, evaluate which strategies are working and not working, and it will be a great way to acknowledge success and the feeling of success. I will also assess each day by recording food intake, exercise and spiritual activity in my Live It Tracker.

Rewards
I really want to go to The Dallas Symphony Orchestra during the holidays...maybe for a mid-point reward. I would love to do a girl's weekend to Hot Springs if I reach my ultimate goal on January 1. Honestly, all the reward I am going to need is waking up in 2011 knowing that I did something I have never done before. I will feel great and that is going to be awesome. Can't wait!

Accountability
I am committed to reaching my goal of weighing less than 172 pounds on January 1, 2010. I am accountable to all who read this blog, my First Place Group, myself and God. There is no reason that upon reliance of HIS strength I can not reach this goal. IN my strength--absolute failure, in His--Victory!

So that's my plan so far. It's a work in progress but I'm just glad I have one. I feel...safe...at this point. Anyone else ready to tackle the All In Challenge? Details here...

P.S. Just in case anyone is really obsessive and wondering about my lack of a weekly weigh-in post this week...I have decided to start posting a monthly weigh-in. I will do it on the first Wednesday of every month.

All In

Oh. Boy. Who watched The Biggest Loser this week? What a show! Some of those boys need a good whoopin' if you ask me. I know, I know--"Game play... Don't take it personal." Yada, yada, yada. I am not really interested in the game play, except when contestants start throwin'-down. Now that's pretty entertaining.

The reason I really love watching the show is because it motivates me. It gets me FIRED UP. Last night it happened when Bob was talking to Lisa. Lisa, Lisa, Lisa. *sigh* Poor thing. She is really starting to GET ON MY NERVES! Ugh!

If you don't watch, let me explain. Lisa created the most drama this week with her "60/40" principle. Not sure which percentage is which, but part of her wants to be there and part of her doesn't. I have decided she's not the smartest cookie in the package since she continues to say this over and over again to people who are 110% sure they want to be there and could be sent home every week. They are not happy with her, neither am I and neither was Bob.

:)

I like it when Bob gets mad. Except when he starts cussing violently as if his vocabulary only consists of 4 letter words. (My 5 year old likes to watch this show--come ON, man!) After hearing Lisa say that she was "honestly about 60/40" for the umpteenth time, Bob lost it. He said a whole bunch of stuff but the bottom line was brilliant. He told her that if she's only part-way in she just wouldn't make it. He said, "You have to be all in."

I really needed to hear this. I've heard it before but it's a truth easily forgotten. Dedication is a tricky thing. Especially when it seems like there is so much to be dedicated to. But really, we make it more complicated than it has to be. When it comes right down to it, we're either in or were out.

At some point, we all use Lisa's logic. She went on to claim that even though part of her did want to go home, she would still give it all she had. She said she couldn't quit. "It's just not in me," she assured her partner. Hmmm, Lisa. Not sure I buy that, deary...

So I mentioned in my last post that I have been thinking about my course of action for the Holiday feeding frenzy that is about to ensue. While I had been tempted to take a 60/40 approach, I have definitely decided against that now. I will share more details later but I have decided on a basic plan/challenge. Here it is:

"ALL IN" Holiday Challenge

1) Set a clear and realistic, yet challenging goal. I will weigh less on January 1, 2011 than I do today. Can't be something like, "I want to do good." Be specific.

2) Formulate a detailed plan of action. Include strategies and assessment tools. Share plan with someone of accountability or blog it before the first holiday eating experience.

3) Be relentless and 100% committed to reaching the goal. None of this 60/40 crap business! No "Lisa's" allowed. You're either in or you're out.

If you want to take on this challenge, and I hope you do, simply follow steps 1-3 and keep us posted on your progress. Feel free to email me anytime: keeliesue@live.com

Whatever you do, don't go into the holiday season thinking you are just going to "wing it." As I told my First Place group last night, I don't care what your plan is--but you better have one! By golly.

On a slightly different note, this week I have found inspiration in these verses calling me to be "all in" as a follower of Christ.

I know your deeds, that you are neither cold nor hot. I wish you were either one or the other! So, because you are lukewarm—neither hot nor cold—I am about to spit you out of my mouth. Revelation 3:15, 16

You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. Jeremiah 29:13

Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength. Mark 12:30

I want to be all in, Lord. Help me. Amen.

Holiday Game Plan

The holidays are upon us. I knew this was coming. I have been leery of this season finally getting here because I haven't quite decided what my approach to holiday eating is going to be. Let's hash it out...

Part of me says it is a special time of year and I should just throw caution to the wind. Eating right does not have to be my focus and as soon as the New Year arrives I will get back on track. After all, I love food and what better time to enjoy it in all it's fattening glory? (This is the part that I am trying hard to ignore.)

There is this other part of me that says to just treat it as any other normal time in my life and eat the right foods in the right amounts. This is not that big a deal, don't over-dramatize it, etc. (This is the part that I wish was right because this seems like the most normal approach.)

Then there is the part that thinks this is the time to kick it into high gear. Turbo-discipline mode. (This is the part that is screaming the loudest right now.)

I received a helpful email from a good friend of mine the other day. She is really fit and eats a very healthful, balanced diet. I don't think she has ever had a weight "problem," but she definitely works hard to maintain the shape she is in. This is what her email said:

...I just want to say that you can totally make your way through the holidays without any serious disaster and if you want to know what I do I will tell you…

Somehow…I just go in the zone. I know I am going to be overwhelmed with all kinds of amazing foods and choices at a ridiculously abnormal speed and pace. Everywhere I go there will be something. You just can’t go there--it will not feel good and when you get done giving in there will be another temptation!

As for the actual holiday meals I pick my favorites and focus on them. For me it is mashed potatoes with butter, bread with butter and turkey. I don’t care about gravy or many of the other things. I would rather have more potatoes. And I pick a green vegetable too. If there is one without all kinds of soup etc mixed in. If not, just a little bit.

I am so happy after all of that and the reward is I didn’t gain weight after the entire festival was over.

Does that help???

YES! It does help me, amazing friend who will remain anonymous!

She is so right about the crazy amount of temptations at a ridiculous pace. And when she said "You can't go there" I'm pretty sure she didn't mean "don't attend" but rather "Girl--Don't GO there!" Not even once--don't go there. Giving in to just one temptation is like letting your guard down...and we all know what happens when you let your guard down--Hips! Big booties! Chins and more chins!

And then I love how she approaches the big meal. Just because there may be 50 casseroles and desserts to choose from, doesn't mean we have to eat it all. Focus on your absolute favorite things and try to have something that is good for you. Simplicity. The payoff--feeling good in your own skin when you wake up in 2011.

Hmmm.

Going into "The ZONE" for the holidays...I really like this concept. I am still letting all my "parts" get their opinions out in the open, but I think I know what my strategy is going to be. I will finalize my decision in the next couple of days.

Anyone interested in an "In the ZONE" pact for the holidays???

Weigh In: Maintenance

172.5--Hey, I'll take it! I should not have gotten away with the very bad behavior that I exhibited over the past weekend. We went on a little getaway during which I abandoned everything that I have come to believe in, health-wise. I spent three days eating the worst crap imaginable, did no exercise and topped it off with the creme de la creme of my kids Halloween candy, aka: chocolate or "the good stuff."

When I returned from the weekend of chili, chips, burgers, dips, more chips, brownies, gravy, and many, many more chips, I knew it would not be pretty on the scale. Nevertheless, I did the Monday morning "step of shame." I was shocked to see a 177.5. That is 5 whole pounds in 5 days!

The punishment did not stop there. I have been SICK as a dog ever since we got back. Headaches, nausea, fatigue. I have not eaten like that, for that many days in a row, in nearly a year. So you can imagine the shock to my digestive system. Not fun. At all. :( The crazy thing is, this is how I used to eat all the time. My poor body! I can't believe what I put it through on a daily basis!

But I am glad this happened. It was a mini-scale example of what could happen if I let myself get out of control throughout the holiday season. The bottom line--IT'S. NOT. WORTH. IT. Period. The food is not worth it. It's just food, someone reminded me recently. For all the grief the abuse of food can and will cause, it's simply not worth it.

This was my fastest screw-up recovery to date. Immediately on Monday I got back on track eating-wise. Tuesday I got back on track with exercise and by today I weighed 172.5 again. The same as I did one week ago. Of course ideally I would not have screw-ups but while I'm still having them, as in: while I'm still human, my goal is to continue to improve on the speed of my recoveries.

This 2-day bounce back was quite a feat for me. It is so exciting to see the changes not only in my physical appearance but in how my mind works differently now and how my emotions take a back seat to reality. These are the changes that are going to matter most in the long run.

Speaking of long run...I have a marathon relay coming up in one month. I have to be able to run 5 MILES! 3 is the most I've done at one time. Yikes!