December 28, 2012

Real fat, again.

Okay, time's up. I've got to get back to business. I've been trying since September. Well, actually I've been talking since September. A lot of talk, very little action.

I have gained about 30 pounds over the past year. None of my clothes fit. I'm very irritable. I don't feel good, period. The point has been proven that I can't just haphazardly address my diet and activity. There is a certain way that things must be done, certain boundaries that must be in place for me to stay healthy. If it took me gaining 30 lbs to know that beyond a shadow of a doubt, then so be it. I'm ready to return to the way of life that brought me so much joy!

I thought long and hard about whether or not I would go back to writing this blog regularly. It got to the point where I felt like there was nothing new for me to write about. Occasionally it is a really difficult thing to do. I tend to become obsessive with it, get my feelings hurt. I make a fool of myself (Do you know that when you "Google" my name about one million pictures of me standing in front of a mirror appear!? Ugh.) I wonder if I am missing something really big and everything I write about is folly.

But, in the end I decided that the blog is just a part of the deal for me. There are new things for me to be REAL about, I just gotta hang in here long enough to see what they are. And I will have to be okay with the possibility likelihood of futility.
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21 comments:

Annie said...

You're not alone, I've just begun again myself!

Annette said...

Im glad you are back!!! Ive missed you! I have finally hit a point that something must be done about my weight. Ive blogged and worked on it and given up and Ive watched so many lose while I stay the same. Jan 2 I start again and In March Ill attempt my first 5k. so maybe we can help each other! thankful you are back! Also, you might have gained some but you didnt gain it all back so thats good!

Codi said...

So glad you're back and I'm right there with you. You've given such great advice and encouragement and have inspired me in many ways.

I have slacked off big time and now feel sick and tired and well, blah.

Seeing your fb post was so exciting. Keep blogging! Keep writing! We're here and listening and taking it one day at a time too.

Emily said...

Yes!

Molly said...

Hellllooooo! Im so glad you're back!!! Welcome back!

Enyonam said...

My dear, this is a daily battle. I believe that you will lose the weight again.

Liz said...

I'm there, too. We can do this!

Virginia said...

Keelie you can do this - you know you can. Look at all those cheeky photos of you smiling it has been a rocky road to get to where you are - but you can turn this around it is within your grasp - just take it one day at a time!

We are with you on this journey

Hugs

Angelinhell said...

Yay I'm glad you're back! It happens to all of us. I started weight watchers in jan, lost 35lbs by may and now I've put 15 back on! So annoyed with myself. I now need to lose 50lbs by my wedding on 24th August 2013. Wish me luck! Cxx

Debbie Huffaker said...

You are awesome....and I know that God is gonna help us both get back to where we can be healthy for HIM. I lost about 65 and have gained back half of that, too. You're braver than me to post pics of yourself! Very proud of you!!!

AJ @ trulylifeinwords - said...

It's part of the journey to victory. I really love your posts. They are encouraging.

Barbara said...

Welcome back. Good health to you

Chubby McGee said...

You've inspired ME along the way on my own journey to lose weight.

I'm pretty sure you'll find the strength to inspire yourself again and lose that weight. You have the power within you, girly. You can do it. And you will!

JennyKozar said...

I just said to myself this morning I need to get m y Made to Crave book out and start doing something. You have inspired me in the past and I know I cannot do this alone.

Sarah G said...

In the same boat with you Keelie. I'm about 13 lbs up from my lowest. Me no likey. We can do this!!

Anonymous said...

In.The.Same.Boat. I gained exactly 30 lbs over the last year. Just got on the scale for the 1st time in months and just about had a hernia! We can begin again. God's mercies are new EVERY day!

Shannon

BEE said...

did the same thing this year
could never seem to get back on track till recently
we can do this together
stay accountable with our blogs and we will be feeling healthier in no time :-)

Deb Willbefree said...

Well, hi, Keelie! I didn't realize you had restarted this blog. I'll be doing a new WL blog, myself--tomorrow. yeah, New Year's Day. that's original, isn't it? Like you, my "let's just be normal about this weight loss thing" didn't work out so well.

Here's my new URL: http://travelinglightin2013.blogspot.com

I'll catch up on your other posts tomorrow.

Happy New Year!

Deb

Jolyn said...

I so feel you.. I had lost 78 pounds 15 pds from onederland and from end of feb till now jan 1 2013 I have gained 50 pounds back..Had some awful family situations car accident hit head on by drunk/druged driver, along with health issues with family members and my therapy from accident...Still I have no excuse, and so upset...Saying all that to say Thanks for being you and being real...Look forward to reading your blog as we start this process once again... I pray for strength and success for you.
Hugs,
Jolyn

Ashley said...

I am so glad you posted this. It makes me realize that this HAPPENS and although it really stinks...it's okay to pick myself back up and get back on track. After losing 116+ i have been struggling so bad and put on 10 pounds since october alone and that's only 2 months..WHO DOES THAT. Anyways, i'm rooting for you:) You can do this.

Ashley Hartdegen said...

i fell off the wagon hard, almost gained all my weight back.. none of my clothes fit and i hate how i look but seeing how im not alone makes me feel so much better about that.. Thank you! keep blogging it'll all be worth it! :)