When I say I'm not giving it 100% here's what I mean: I'm not working out everyday. I'm not tracking everything I put in my mouth. I'm eating sweets here and there. I enjoy a meal out several times a month. What I am not doing is binging every other day, ordering 2 meals instead of one when I eat out, etc. I have self-control (for the most part). In my mind, this is what life is supposed to be like. When you get to goal.
But I'm not at goal yet. Have I come a very long way? Yes, I have. Leaps and bounds. Am I finished? Not by any means. The past week or so, something has been building up inside of me. It is a strong desire to buckle down, re-focus and Git-R-Done.
At the same time, part of me fights against that desire. I have been hesitant to claim that "Git-R-Done" is the official mode I am shifting into because I don't want to create a huge mental fiasco for myself. I am very leery of extreme goal-setting and very sensitive to my personality that likes to dream big and follow-through tiny. Even so...
I know I could do it. I know what it takes to Git-R-Done. Knowing is not a problem. I will need to plan my meals every week in advance. I will need to stick to "choose often" foods. I will need to go to the grocery store every week. I will need to pass on all sweets and most out-of-house meals. I will need to do some activity EVERY single day. I will need to keep my house clean. I will need to get up at 5:30 every morning and have my quiet time with the Lord so that I can even attempt to do all of these things. These are the things that will Git-R-Done for me.
I have prayed about this. I really wanted to be able to say that God told me it was time to Git-R-Done. But He didn't. He's not too concerned with that. He's going to get done in me what He wants, when He wants. If I decide that it is time to Git-R-Done where my weight is concerned, that's going to be all me.
So I guess the question is, Am I ready? Am I ready to be done with this? Am I ready to finish with the fire that I began with...or am I content to let the pounds slowly melt away over the next few years? Either would be just fine. Honestly. But what do I want? This is my life, my story. I have a small part in writing it through the choices that I make each day. So what do I want to write? I'm ready to decide how this final chapter of my weight-loss story is going to play out...
I think I've made my decision. :-)
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7 comments:
I love your story. I love your desire. Once you make your decision I know you will see results. Keep us posted.
I so need to adopt your Git-r-done attitude.
I think I may be on the same path. :) I guess it is time to restart the fire, isn't it?
My journey is similar to yours. I know where you are because I've been there. I'm still there. I wonder what it will be like to hit goal. Then I realize that even when I hit goal nothing is going to change. It will still be a constant effort. When we're done... are we really? Isn't that why everything we are learning is so important - this is our life now. Git-R-Done!
I cannot even begin to tell you how encouraging your post is. I started out just like you, started to plateau and then just gave up. I'm still struggling to "Git-R-Done". *sigh* I'm going to reread what you've posted and let it sink in. I need to make the decision for myself as I've been living in limbo lately. Thanks for posting what you're going through.
I can git-r-done, yay!!!
I can so relate to what you are going through.
I feel the same way, I'm acting as though I were in maintenence mode instead of still wanting to lose ALOT of weight.
Thanks so much for this post, I read your blog regularly, but this post really hit home!
Love this post...you really motivate me!
J
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