December 28, 2011

Caution: This is Hard

Oh yeah. This is going to be hard.

Slowly but surely over the past few months or so I have gone completely astray from the lifestyle that I once embraced. No exercise. No tracking. No weighing. No eating healthy. And NO restraint. Apparently it was a mistake for me to think that it was going to be a piece of cake, so to speak, to return to the healthy and active way of living. It's not like riding a bicycle. At all. I am going to have to completely de-program  and then completely re-program. This is going to basically be like a nightmare.

I have just been sitting around waiting for the fire to ignite underneath me. It ain't happenin'. So. I'm going to have to work. I'm probably going to have to go to bed hungry sometimes. I'm going to have to hurt while I exercise. I'm going to have to watch people eat things I want to eat. I'm going to have to get used to getting up early again. I'm going to have to drive past my favorite drive thrus. I'm going to have to figure out how to change my scale from kilos back to pounds...

There is definitely some hard work on the horizon. But some of the best memories I have from the year I began to lose weight are of accomplishments that were a result of sweaty, teary, gritty hard work. That's exactly what's about to happen, so I know I'll be making memories. Hopefully these memories will serve as a reminder to never let myself go this far astray again!

It's all part of "the journey," right?

I'm going to post a workout update  with pics tomorrow. Someone hold me to that!
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11 comments:

SkinnyGirlSetFree said...

Oh girl...I feel ya!!! I'm in the SAME boat! I'll be looking for your pic/post.....

Heather said...

I feel you too, girly!! I have not been doing good at all lately.....I can tell that I have gained back a few pounds(probably 10-15) of the 60 I had lost. I dare NOT get on the scale and find out the actual pounds gained.
Part of me says to myself "oh, forget it! You have already sabbotaged your weight loss" the other part says "get back started NOW.....Don't wait another day!" It really is a day to day struggle :/ I am looking forward to your update tomorrow :) I will be praying that God gives you the strength and desire to "jump start" your healthy lifestyle back up :) Please pray for me too :))

Jamie said...

I am going to bed a little hungry tonight but that's because I did 3.2 miles on the treadmill and burned 422 calories of my 1310 I had today. ;) I am so going through the hard work with you! Praying for you my friend!

Dinnerland said...

You can do it, falling off the track doesn't mean you need to lay down and die there!! Just get up and brush off... every little change back in the right direction is good and worth it. Be gentle with yourself as you get back on the right track. Little changes mean a lot!! You'll get there.

steph2088 said...

Have you ever read Andie's blog "Can You Stay for Dinner"? It's not only inspiring but beautifully written. It puts everything in perspective and forces the guilt/anger/sadness of the process to be left on the sidewalk.
It's amazing.
http://www.canyoustayfordinner.com/

Steph

Michelle said...

It seems like a lot of us are in the same rut. I wish it were as easy to get back on track as it is to get off! Good Luck girl!

Todd Swanson said...

Progress is not always a streight path sometimes there are valleys. I wish you the best. Phil 4:13 I can do all things through Him who strengthens me.

Debbie Huffaker said...

I wish you knew how much you mean to me...even though we've never met. I did a post just this week on being truthful...I think that's one of the main things He asks of us...is to be truthful about everything. Being truthful = keeping it real!!! ;-)
In HIS Love....Deb

Kyle Gershman said...

Yup...that is my life...I recognized years ago that living a healthy lifestyle isn't natural for me. It isn't natural for a recovering alcoholic to hang out in bars or for a drug addict to hang out in a crack house and just avoid their addictions. They have to spend each moment of each day concentrating on staying sober.

And that has been my sobering realization...that I'm addicted to living an unhealthy lifestyle and if I don't work everyday to stay on my path, it can go awry quickly.

At least the effects of an off day aren't as dire as that for a chemically dependent addict, but it hurts emotionally and psychologically all the same.

I don't know if it'll ever feel natural and "easy" to make great choices in diet and exercise, I just hope that it continues to get easier.

You aren't alone by a longshot.

Kelly said...

The new year starts in 3 days.. Clean and fresh slate! You've got this !

The journey is def more challenging at times, but the beauty is that you are still on your journey and didn't venture WAYYYYYYYYYYYYY off and end up in the middle of nowhere.

XO

Liz said...

You can do it!! :) I've done really well all year long, but from mid-November on, I've totally "let go" and need to get my act together!! Back to work. On Monday. :)