December 26, 2011

Finish Year

From Jon Acuff's blog:
I am amazing at starting things.

I start new books, new dreams, new projects, new ideas with an admirable amount of energy, enthusiasm and drive.

Finishing things?

That’s another story. Finishing is kind of a drag to me. I think it’s the hardest part of a project. It’s not nearly as fun as starting. Starting is sexy and easy and fireworks over the sky as we celebrate the possibility of where this adventure will lead us!

I hate finishing. I used to be horrible at finishing.
Unfortunately, though, I learned a secret about starting and finishing.

Starting a project doesn’t change the world. Finishing a project changes the world.
Read the full post here.

When I read this, I was thinking, "Yup, that's me." I was thinking of my weight loss goals and this blog. I was thinking about my family and the things I want for them. I was thinking about how good I am at starting things and how very, very bad I am at finishing them. I don't want to be a quitter. I want to be a finisher.

God willing, in 2012:
  • I will finish losing the weight that I set out to lose back in January of 2010. 50 down, 40 to go...
  • I will run and finish my second half marathon.
  • I will finish reading every book that I have purchased on my Kindle and only half read. 12 of them.  
  • I will finish each day in God's word and in prayer with my children.
Writing out this finish list is scary.

I'm going to share it here.


Deb Willbefree said...

Reading the quote, I nodded along and thought about how I often fade before the the quote said. And then something crossed my mind.

When I went to university, I had a terrible time finishing the last semester to get the degree. Every time. (I have 3 degrees.)

That last semester, I just wanted to quit. I was overwhelmed and panicked during the last semester.

Now--here's the thing. I would have a 4.0 or close entering into that last semester. Every time.

All I needed to do was coast. Just show up and I'd graduate--yet, I had to "talk myself down" on a daily basis and remind myself that I was already done--I just needed to show up.

It was like I was driven to shoot myself in the foot. It wasn't that my enthusiasm had faded, it was that finishing panicked me.

Instead of fear of failure--I had fear of success!

And that's what happened with my weight loss, too. I got to 169 pounds. 20 pounds away from done. I felt good, didn't feel fat, was really fine walking into a room just as I was--and blamo! Shot myself in the foot.

I have several unfinished books on Kindle, too. :} But this lack of finishing, may be something else. For us both.

God can enable us to turn this around. He can.


Loving my Complicated Life! said...

I can very much relate to this. So glad to be backto catch up with you. Love the new hair, by-the-way. ~Allison

Kyle Gershman said...

A powerful revelation and a great way to get 2012 wishes.

JordanSky said...

It's the same for me, I can finish goals for other people but not myself. That's why I'm also doing a weight loss journal this year. Thanks for blogging your ups and downs too. BTW hi. Deliciously Happy

Sam said...

I'm thrilled you are going to continue blogging! I have always admired your courage in sharing your faith about Christ and how it has affected your journey! Don't stop. Ever! :)

JordanSky said...

Thanks for stopping by my humble little blog luvvie. It means the world to me to know I have supporters.