September 22, 2010

"Come to Jesus" Meeting

Do you want to hear the truth? Really. I mean, CAN you handle it?

I'm just warning you, I'm about to speak the truth. And some people aren't going to like it. They aren't going to want to hear it and they certainly aren't going to want to face it. They might even tell me I'm wrong. That's fine and dandy. But here it comes...

There is only one way weight loss can happen. You, and I, choose for it to. Plain and simple. If I'm not losing or even worse--I'm gaining--it's because of what I am choosing.

For several months now I have been at a plateau. (quick, get out the violins) It has been hard to deal with and I have shared my frustration via the blog here. I have had nothing but support from my bloggy friends and real-life friends alike. You guys are too kind.

No, I mean you are really too kind. Because I have been choosing this path. It's not some unfortunate thing that is happening to me that is beyond my control. And I am letting people tell me it's okay and I'm too hard on myself, etc. "Just look at your accomplishments!"

Oh yeah, I'm lovin' it!

Awe, I think. That's right. [pats self on back] I really have worked hard. [nodding]I have come so far! Just look how awesome I look compared to when I weighed 229. (Umm, doesn't anything look good compared to a 5'-4" 229lb.er with no make-up and a miserable look on her face? Just checking) I really need to stop beating myself up. I need to allow some time for my body to adjust to all of this weight loss.

Okay seriously? If I were a person on the Biggest Loser saying this crap I would be yelling at me through the TV.

SUCK IT UP YOU BIG LOSER!

I could live with some of these consolations or excuses for a plateau. But we aren't dealing with a plateau. No, this is more like a 4 month desert.

It's is ridiculous. Asinine, actually. The charade is over. The very un-candy coated truth--I have been giving about 10% to my physical activity (some weeks not even that), I have not set any challenging goals for myself, I have lost attention to detail in my food intake. I have forgotten why I am doing this. I have let comfort rule, and buried Truth in the backyard.

Fugetaboutit...

Yeah, ummmmm, that doesn't work. You IDIOT. (Speaking to myself here, but feel free to apply as needed. Usually not this harsh, but drastic times call for drastic measures)

Let me be very clear. I am perfectly fine right now, emotionally speaking. I am not down on myself at all. I don't need anybody to feel sorry for me. I am simply facing the TRUTH of the matter. I am confessing it. That is all. Infact, I am a little giddy about the fire that has apparently been lit under my backside. Thank you, Jesus.

No more of this. There is no reason in the world that I can not begin to see results again and on a weekly basis. I have to choose to do it. And that's what I am choosing.

Hold me to it. You hear me? HOLD me to it.
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P.S. I may regret this post in the morning. Yeah, pretty sure.

20 comments:

Moving Mertle said...

I have been there! You think you're doing great and you're just not losing weight....but then you really think about it and say oooh yeah I have been eating a little too much and moving a little too little. At least you know how much you are capable of and how far you've come. You can go as far as you want, especially with that new fire under your patootie!

RescuingLisa said...

Amen!

Confess it and move forward - I just did the same thing and just got myself back to the gym tonight.

Onwards and upwards!

Weightless said...

I'm right there with you! I'm so ready to be at goal - I just have to earn it!

LauraLynne said...

our journeys are very similar (except you're a WAY better dresser and much cuter than I am). I haven't been giving it 100% - not entirely. And I'm not suprised at my less than 100% results. But I made my training plan and I"ll coast through the rest of this week but on Sunday I'm back to 100% - it's on like Donkey Kong!!

Deb Willbefree said...

Chuckle. Welcome to the exercise of walking in the light. :D It may hurt your eyes a bit...even make em water...but the results are golden. :D

I have not been fooled about my own languishing this summer, either. I have never called it a plateau, because I've known perfectly well that I've been slipping, sometimes diving, off program. I have issues! ha. And fat! I decided that neither get to win.

Tomorrow South Beach Steve is starting a challenge to last until Dec 31--that's 100 days. If you're interested, there's a link on my blog.

:D Walking in the light is good. It is.... It will get us where we want to be. I'll just keep telling myself that as I feel myself want to duck for dimmer, sweeter shelter.

Deb

Michelle said...

Oh I understand! I chose to ride when I could have walked. I chose to "drive-thru" when I could have prepared something myself. A million little choices got me here and I have to make a million choices (good ones!) to get back. Thanks for posting!

Charbelle said...

I agree with the above comment, confess and move on. :) Once my race is over on 10/3 I plan to redirect my focus on how I work out. I already track food but my workouts have become montonous.

Denita said...

Amen...nuff said!

Can do mom said...

Yay! I knew you'd light a fire and get going in high gear again! It's a fine to balance motivation with legalism and I urge you to walk it carefully. You know what you're capable of and whether you've been slacking off so I'm going to ask the tough questions every now and then - in love, of course!

Blessings to you, Keelie!

Your fellow traveler,
Jodie

Can do mom said...

Woops! Typing while on my cross-trainer! I meant a FINE LINE. You probably already knew that...

Stacey at Living by Faith said...

Totally agree, because sadly I have been there myself for months on end! I actually on the beginning of it again. I had set a goal to lose 5 lbs this month. I have lost nothing. I can make all the excuses in the world about new schedules, trials, etc. But it all comes down to me not choosing my weight loss and exercise as a priority this month. So preach on girlfriend! And you can hold me to it too!

Jess said...

I have been stuck in the desert too! For months now....and it is a choice. I, apparently have no will power at all. Most of the time I feel like I am not mentally focused or strong enough to make the right decisions. I hope you turn things around.

Kelly said...

WHOOP WHOOP !!!

It's time for the next chapter! Strap on them running shoes and pound some pavement girl !

Just do it ! :)

Tina said...

You crack me up - I too have to gie myself a kick in the pants and tell myself to stop it. I am the only person causing me to gain weight - and I am the only person who is going to make me loose it. If I am not losing it (most of the time) its because I wasn't active enough, I ate too much - or both! End of story - I can mkae up all the excuses I want (and believe me I have) but that is not going to change what is really going on. I need to admit it to myself and the Lord, repent and get back on the band wagon!

There, now we both have our kick in the butt.

Erin (formerly Romantic Comedee) said...

Nope, not a single regret need be had. You, Miss Keelie, have been open and honest about your journey from the very beginning. Admitting you've fallen down is only human. Now it's time to jump back up. Okay, ready...set...go...

Tiff said...

Oh my dear friend, AMEN! Seriously, I'm in that exact same boat with you and it's time we started rockin this dang boat so that we can eventually get out of it! p.s. love the title :)

Stephanie said...

I'm also right there with you. I'm finding it hard to stay motivated because I actually feel good about myself and the way I look right now.

Overweight in SoCal said...

I'm here right now. So. I'm glad I came to your blog today and read this truth because I needed to read/hear it. And I'm going to hold myself to it as well

Maria said...

Did you read my journal from the last few weeks??? Girl, I am so here with you. Let's hang in there, we WILL do this. Keep our eyes on Him...dig in and dig out of this pit of plateau we've been in! I'll be praying for you friend! ~M

Jeannette said...

Haha! I love this post. I am so there right with you. I am not exercising like I know I can and I am def. eating the wrong foods. I am pretty sure you are the UnknownDieter who commented on my Hippo with a Headband site. :0) I'm glad we can follow each other and be friends.

PS I LOVE your music. No need to load up Klove.com lol