Do you want to hear the truth? Really. I mean, CAN you handle it?
I'm just warning you, I'm about to speak the truth. And some people aren't going to like it. They aren't going to want to hear it and they certainly aren't going to want to face it. They might even tell me I'm wrong. That's fine and dandy. But here it comes...
There is only one way weight loss can happen. You, and I, choose for it to. Plain and simple. If I'm not losing or even worse--I'm gaining--it's because of what I am choosing.
For several months now I have been at a plateau. (quick, get out the violins) It has been hard to deal with and I have shared my frustration via the blog here. I have had nothing but support from my bloggy friends and real-life friends alike. You guys are too kind.
No, I mean you are really too kind. Because I have been choosing this path. It's not some unfortunate thing that is happening to me that is beyond my control. And I am letting people tell me it's okay and I'm too hard on myself, etc. "Just look at your accomplishments!"
Oh yeah, I'm lovin' it!
Awe, I think. That's right. [pats self on back] I really have worked hard. [nodding]I have come so far! Just look how awesome I look compared to when I weighed 229. (Umm, doesn't anything look good compared to a 5'-4" 229lb.er with no make-up and a miserable look on her face? Just checking) I really need to stop beating myself up. I need to allow some time for my body to adjust to all of this weight loss.
Okay seriously? If I were a person on the Biggest Loser saying this crap I would be yelling at me through the TV.
SUCK IT UP YOU BIG LOSER!
I could live with some of these consolations or excuses for a plateau. But we aren't dealing with a plateau. No, this is more like a 4 month desert.
It's is ridiculous. Asinine, actually. The charade is over. The very un-candy coated truth--I have been giving about 10% to my physical activity (some weeks not even that), I have not set any challenging goals for myself, I have lost attention to detail in my food intake. I have forgotten why I am doing this. I have let comfort rule, and buried Truth in the backyard.
Yeah, ummmmm, that doesn't work. You IDIOT. (Speaking to myself here, but feel free to apply as needed. Usually not this harsh, but drastic times call for drastic measures)
Let me be very clear. I am perfectly fine right now, emotionally speaking. I am not down on myself at all. I don't need anybody to feel sorry for me. I am simply facing the TRUTH of the matter. I am confessing it. That is all. Infact, I am a little giddy about the fire that has apparently been lit under my backside. Thank you, Jesus.
No more of this. There is no reason in the world that I can not begin to see results again and on a weekly basis. I have to choose to do it. And that's what I am choosing.
Hold me to it. You hear me? HOLD me to it.
P.S. I may regret this post in the morning. Yeah, pretty sure.