This chart pretty much says it all. It explains my frustration in recent posts. Frustration for which I am slightly ashamed. I don't want to be a Downer. I am truly grateful for the success I have had so far. The chart shows that also.
Notice the blue line is aiming downward once again. Surprise, surprise! I weighed 175.5 today. I'm not gonna lie. I was not excited about getting on the scale this morning. I had no idea what I was going to say about another week at the same weight. But then there was a loss. Well blow me down!
Sometimes I kind of wish I had kept my blog a secret. Just a private journal for my thoughts. You know, there are down times when you need to write about stuff that isn't exactly something you want your next door neighbor to know. (I don't know my neighbor, but I wouldn't be surprised if she read my blog. It's a small town and things get around). Some things are embarrassing. And I'm not even talking about poop and stuff like that. I could care less about talking about that stuff.
No. I'm talking about the failure stuff. The falling off the wagon stuff. The confessional stuff. The whiny stuff. That's the kind of stuff that's not fun to share.
But then when I step back and take an objective look I realize that this is precisely what is responsible for my success thus far. Truthfulness. Openness. Realness. These things are essential. I may not like writing sometimes and you may get tired of reading sometimes but this is it. The good, the bad and the redundant. The whining is here to stay, too, I'm afraid.