179 lbs
I don't really know how much I lost this week. I'm so confused! I think it was 2 pounds. Really until I start dropping below 179 (my lowest weight to date) I don't consider it a "loss." I was happy to see that 7 in the tens place today! I really hope I can keep moving in the right direction.
The first pic was taken in March when I had broken into ONEderland. Such a sweet, sweet victory. I am ready to feel those amazing victories again. Don't get me wrong. I have really learned to appreciate and embrace the not-so obvious victories but I have to admit--the big ones are fun.
This week at my meeting we discussed faulty thinking. It was very interesting. The causes of faulty thinking can take on many forms: excuses, lies, misinformation. As it relates to weight loss and body image, what are some examples of faulty thinking you can identify in your own life? What steps have you taken to correct this way of thinking? What is the truth?
I look forward to hearing from you wise ladies and gents! If you haven't already, would you consider editing your profile information to show your email address? If you do this, I can respond to your comments directly via email. I can't visit blogs very often, as I have mentioned before, because we don't have internet at home. I have to come to my parents, whip out a quick post and that's about it. However, I get your comments and can respond to them on my phone so please consider sharing you email if you comment! I appreciate you and usually want to respond to your comments :)
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You're beautiful! Congrats on breaking into the 170's!!
Jennifer
Living a Changed Life
livingachangedlife@gmail.com
Wow, there are a lot Keelie. And I think part of this journey has been to face up to them and move past them! Feeling I wasn't worth the time. Telling myself "I will always be a big girl." Or "I could never be a size 7." Trying to fool myself into thinking that cheating on my eating and slacking off in my exercising wasn't too big of a deal. I was too tired, too busy, too sick... too anything as an excuse.
Now, I say to myself I am worth it, I can be healthy and whatever size that means... well, likely that will surprise me. I have a goal in mind for weight based on my height but... we'll just see.
The other biggest faulty thinking was that the number on the scale should dictate my self-worth. You might not have seen, but on my blog I stated I will not look at my scale for a month. And will continue to only look once a month. I refuse to let it rule my feelings anymore.
I think its really to lie to yourself. I have been really good lately. Eating pretty much on track (i am lacking on exercise) but sometimes when I want something fatty or sweet I think to myself "I am comfortable with myself and I have a husband who loves me so who cares how fat I am?" But then I have to kick myself in the tush.
Its not about size but it is about being the best person possible. And if I let cookies or cake control me then I can't be that person. I just have to change my thoughts and pray for help or guidance. I find that sheds so much light for me!
lisat0618@gmail.com
Negative thinking...I have achieved my goal weight, but I still see myself as the "fat girl". When I say that is still go to WW, people say "whatever for". I know that I am better, but not well. I am just a few weeks away from several bad food choices, blowing off workout, ect and I will be the "fat girl" again.
You look wonderful...big change since March.
Mis
antie4111@bellsouth.net
Woo Hoo Keelie! You're back in the 170's - you go girl! You're on the right track, it just takes time and perseverance. :)
Even though I only want to lose about ten more pounds, it's easy for me to get discouraged when the number on the scale doesn't budge. As you know, we are so much more than a number on a scale. It's good to be reminded of that truth.
I will say the same to you: You're working hard, great things are happening and no matter what the scale says you're a daughter of the King and a beautiful wife, mom, daughter, sister (I think?) and friend!
Jodie
can_do_mom@yahoo.com
Negative thoughts say it all for me. I had let the negativity rule for me. It would always say, 'you're never gonna look good'..'you will always be fat'..'you might as well eat that because you're fat already'.... The negative thoughts had completely consumed my world.
Truth is, you can set out to do anything you want and you can achieve your dreams also. You must break the mind set. I have learned to do that. I do have the occasional negative thought rush in every now and then, but it's becoming a whole lot easier to turn it off. I know what I want and I know what I have to do to get what I want.
Woohoo on the 2 lbs! I lost and gained the same 2-3 lbs over summer months. When I lose, I still try to celebrate. It helps with the mind set.
Your pic comparison.. LOVE IT! You are a gorgeous lady. I know you feel amazing, it shows.
Kelly
wklytton@yahoo.com
Looking Good! I am so glad you have closely documented your progress with photos. They don't lie. You look like a completely different person. I know that is true for the inside as well based on the work HE is doing in you. You rock!
Of course you already know about my faulty thinking linking the number on the scale with my self worth. Another that I have been working on, "I will start tomorrow." Um, Hello, tomorrow was never showing up. Another big one is that if I was doing well and then I 'messed up' I would feel like I should go and a eat whatever for the rest of the day and start over in the morning (another tomorrow). I had made the next day the do-over instead of the next meal. All of these are huge things that have helped clear the mental weight which is now starting to help with decreasing my actual weight.
Love how you make us think!
Yay congratulations!!!! You absolutely rock!!!!
I know what you mean. I don't really consider it a loss really until it's below my lowest. I just hit my lowest again this morning so I'm so excited to be moving down from there. I'll have to see where it can share my email. I'll type it here too just in case. You are really inspiring and I look forward to your blog posts. :)
WndDncr26@aol.com
How crazy! Your after pic is of you in the car and the sun is shining on one side of your face. My profile pic is the same way! :) It's a very good pic of you BTW. There's alot more color in your face in the after shot! I wish I could get to the 170's again.
I think all behavior starts in our minds. We don't just get up, get in the car, drive to Taco Johns and order the Volcano Nachos and a Quesadilla. (At least that's what I get when I'm crazy.) It's a conscious decision. And it's been building for awhile whether we belive it or not.
It's how I describe my alcoholism to a new person in AA. Sure, I could have a glass of wine with dinner tonight. Maybe next week I'd drink a bottle with friends. But give me a month? I'll be back to hiding in my closet with a bottle of vodka and a knife. Because my head starts to lie to me and I start to believe it. That I'm worthless, stupid, fat, ugly, all those things.
I persist in asking God every morning to direct my THINKING. Not my actions, but my thinking. Because that's where I start to veer off the path. In my head. Not in what I do.
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