Bold move for this girl.
What I decided is that I would eat what the Lord provided. I would not pack special food that would have to be eaten in private. (Even though I think this is a perfectly acceptable practice) I would not fill out a tracker everyday. I would not exercise but I would try to stay active throughout each day. I would not read or write blog posts. I would not even do my First Place 4 Health Bible study. Lord willing, I would shift my focus completely off of food and weight loss for an entire week.
I didn't really know why I decided on all of this except that it's what God put on my heart to do. I had to check myself several times and ask if my motives were pure. Each time, I concluded that this break was the right thing to do. The theme for our trip was "Jesus + Nothing = Everything" and I really wanted to embrace that. Even though I frequently waiver emotionally and have my slip-ups, I have never completely logged off for an entire week, nor have I wanted to, honestly. It was a scary prospect but I felt like it was what I needed to do.
The trip went pretty much as expected, regarding the food, etc. I got up really early one morning to run, but it was just too difficult considering our sleeping arrangements (about 40 people in one big room). I had more fast food in the past 8 days than I did in the entire year of 2010 and 2011 combined. I ate things like sloppy joes, packs of chips, Chips Ahoy cookies, and yes, even S'mores. I ate what everyone else ate. I ate when everyone else ate. And it was okay. It was part of fellowship. It was part of being unified, which was a goal for the trip.
Just to keep it real, I should admit that a little part of me was hoping I would return home, step on the scale and see a miraculous 10 lb loss. Mostly I knew that wouldn't happen but it was a thought in the back of my mind. In reality, when I got home I found that I had gained about 5 lbs. I had mentally prepared my self for as much as a 10 lb gain, so I handled the gain just fine.
So that pretty much catches us up. I'm here. I'm healthy. I got to taste a bit of the "normalcy" that perhaps will be my norm someday. But for now its back to the safety of what I have come to rest in. Tracking, running, blogging, focusing...In Jesus' name I will press on, with the much needed reminder and assurance that there is more to life than weight loss. I'm so thankful.
Here are a few pics from my trip:
Glory and her daddy
Bible School sweeties
Jonah and his boys
Takin' a break, scratchin' the sand fleas :/
This hip is where Glory spent most of the week. Sweet time with my girl:-)