February 11, 2012

Week in Review No. 6

I had a so-so week. I think I only had one 1200 calorie day (goal was 3) and went over on my calories once or twice. I did do a pretty good job eating balanced meals. I am enjoying the consumption of my coffee again. Eating the huge bag of peanut m&ms was the low point this week but thankfully it did not drag out into other mistakes. I did get my 6 mile run in on Monday! Felt good to get that behind me. Mom and I ran together. She is planning to do the half also, so hopefully we can do our long runs together from here on out. I purchased my third pair of running shoes this week with my birthday money. That was by far and away the most money I have ever spent on shoes...probably on any one item of clothing in my entire life! But like the employee reminded me--it's a small price to pay for health. That is true. And good running shoes are essential!

The "giving up my coffee creamer" thing had me all out of whack. It was a pretty cool experience though. Even just going a couple weeks without it helped me to see the role it was playing for me. And it is a role I am okay with for now. So I added it back. It is part of what "works" for me.

It is amazing to me the difference in my mind since I decided to quit weighing. It feels like there is so much more space in my head now! Ha. Today I really noticed a "weight lifted," no pun intended. My mind kept wanting to think about weighing in tomorrow but then it would remember I'm not doing that and then just relax. I truly think that had I been planning to weigh in the morning I would have overeaten today. Amazing the way I am seeing this pattern now.

A few emotions stand out to me this week. The first emotion is powerlessness. The beginning of the week was marked with an unhealthy focus on the unmet expectations I had for my weigh-in last Sunday. It had me down and I could picture the week ending up badly as I was already thinking about the next weigh-in and what I would do if it wasn't the way I thought it should be. Then Wednesday night happened. Ever since I wrote that post and put the scale away I have felt excited. (PS--If you didn't read that post but plan to keep following along, I suggest reading it so you aren't lost. Sorry, it's long.) Excitement is the emotion I feel because this is a kind of freedom that is different than I've ever felt before. I am also so grateful! I believe this new way of doing things is a gift and I am thankful for it--whatever it may bring.

On February 9th I wrote a post about putting my scale away. (Link in previous paragraph) Later that day I sat down to have my daily quiet time and mistakenly turned to the January 9th entry in Jesus Calling instead of the February 9th entry. I just realized that discrepancy as I was preparing to write this post. I believe that in no way was that an accident or coincidence but rather a divine appointment. This is what I read:
I am with you and for you. When you decide on a course of action that is in line with my will, nothing on heaven or on earth can stop you, you may encounter many obstacles as you move toward your goal, but don't be discouraged--never give up! With my help, you can overcome any obstacle. Do not expect an easy path as you journey hand in hand with Me, but do remember that I, your very-present Helper, am omnipotent.

Much, much stress results from your wanting to make things happen before their times have come. One of the main ways I assert My sovereignty is in the timing of events. If you want to stay close to Me and do things My way, ask me to show you the path forward moment by moment. Instead of dashing headlong toward your goal, let Me set the pace. Slow down, and enjoy the journey.       

Tears. Of. Joy. Thank you, Jesus!
PS--Jesus Calling is a devotional book in which the author shares her prayer journal as she spent a year focused on being more attentive to the Savior's voice and listening for what He was saying. The book shares the words that Jesus laid on her heart. The scripture references are interwoven into the daily devotionals. This particular day was from Romans 8:31, Psalm 46:1-3, Luke 1:37.


It's me, Cheri! said...

Oh keelie! Love that scripture ! It is very timely and has blessed me so much. Thank you.

Kyle Gershman said...

To me, it sounds like you are in a really healthy place in your journey...and a 6 mile run! I'm envious.

I was off the treadmill for a couple weeks and after being able to consistently run 5K, I could barely get 15 minutes going for my first time back on yesterday.

Oh well...I know I'll get it back.

kellyo said...

My friend gave me that devotional for Christmas...love it!

Absolutely, Positively Josie said...

Sounds like success to me, Keelie. Running six miles?! I honestly can't even process that. You're a machine!
Putting up the scale is not categorically a cop out; I started believing that when I saw it was possible to lose weight by being temperate and patient. Now, for temperance and patience. I pray they fill your life.

PS: that haircut is super flattering!

Chris in FL--Joyful Mother said...

Hi Keelie,

I haven't commented in awhile because I have been somewhat away from blog surfing of sorts. I am so glad to see you are still on your journey, even though you have hit some bumps and potholes. :) I am sure it is hard. It is for me. I left mine awhile ago being caught up with all other stuff going on in my life I could not think of adding diet and exercise into the mix.

I am back on the journey once again. I started today. I am 163 and am a tad bit shorter than you. I haven't done exercise in a long while. Anyway....I started watching biggest loser on Netflix...my daughters got me hooked on it. I always thought it was a waste of time watching a whole bunch of fat people losing weight but it has so encouraged me to do this for myself. I am hooked on the show and now feel so motivated to do it for myself.

I know you would understand since you are on your weight loss journey. I have a friend who has been on it also and she now weighs less than I do. She has lost about 60 pounds and has about 20 or 30 more pounds before she reaches her goal. She looks amazing. I don't think she needs to lose more. She encourages me also.

Oh and Thanks for posting your tracker it helps me see what others are eating. I love my creamer too! I can totally relate. I don't know if I can let it go....we'll see.

Chris @joyfulmother.blogspot.com